I just layed in bed laughing at myself. Going back and forth between crying and laughing, each making the other worse. Crying because I screwed up again and laughing because well…I screwed up again, it’s all I seem capable of doing anymore.

While I was crying I questioned what was so wrong with me. While I was laughing I questioned what wasn’t wrong with me.

I can’t do this alone. You guys are great and all, definitely a support but I need someone i’ve known longer, ya know?

some days I feel like I can’t go on

I waited too long. It’s too late to get help.